Recently, I went through a breakup. I am still going through what I have come to recognize as the anger-sadness-humor (of the dark variety) cycle, and I have been reflecting. This morning, I woke up and my first thought was: Why don't we say "I don't love you"? It takes immense courage and vulnerability to … Continue reading I don’t love you.
Recently, I had my first diabetes-related emotional breakdown. It was surprising to me even in the moment because I never thought that diabetes would break me—at least emotionally. I had been struggling for over a month with my pump and CGM supplier, with hours-long holds, unhelpful calls, and overall seeming unwillingness on their part to … Continue reading I am greater than my highs and lows.
Earlier this week, I caught up with a former colleague and still friend. Usually, calls like these largely involve sharing life updates and joking around. Lately, all social calls have covered primarily one topic: how we're dealing with the pandemic. So during Tuesday's call, I vulnerably and honestly admitted that it's starting to get to … Continue reading Quarantine Thoughts
It's no secret--shame is a pillar of Asian culture. One of the consequences of that is we don't talk about issues. We don't air out our dirty laundry (which is a particularly funny saying in this case because the OG Asians will always only air dry their laundry for the sake of frugality) because we … Continue reading Having Shame and Diabetes
If home is where the heart is, then I am finally home. A little over a month ago, I shared on social media my plan to move. I have been in Seattle for a month now, and this is the best decision that I have made for myself in a long time--maybe ever. Moving to … Continue reading Home is where the heart is.
I like to believe that I have accomplished a good amount in my lifetime, particularly over the past two years. But I was never truly proud of myself until this week. I finally went to my endocrinologist because I was overdue for a visit. The nurse did all the usual things--ask the standard questions, check … Continue reading Becoming Healthier
I see it in my photos, in my reflection, and in the "sudden" tightness of clothes that used to fit perfectly: I have gained weight. When I first realized this, I beat myself up about it for weeks by asking how I let things get this way. I knew that my stress levels had increased … Continue reading Body Image
People joke about the struggle bus, but let me tell ya--the struggle bus ain't no joke. I was on it for nearly two years, and I've periodically been on it since, and on none of those occasions was it fun. As with any other bus, sometimes you get on for a short trip, and other … Continue reading All Aboard the Struggle Bus
I can't always make other people happy. It's hard to do and even harder to admit. I spent years making decisions and commitments based on what I thought others wanted or needed, forgoing the better decisions for and commitments to myself. I tried to convince myself that seeing other people happy made me happy, but … Continue reading Becoming Happier
"Are you crazy?" Yes, I am a little bit crazy, but I think we all knew that already. Signing up for half marathons was an idea; signing up for 10 half marathons was a mentality: go big or go home. Yes, I could have done two or three... But there was a 10-pack … Continue reading Running Thoughts
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