I miss the chase. I miss chasing and being chased. Looking at one old photo in particular reminds me of the several times in the beginning he said, "I'm going to chase you." I thought, "Psh, okay. You've already got me anyway." Maybe I shouldn't have adopted and demonstrated that attitude so quickly. Perhaps I … Continue reading The Chase →

So many things to write about, so little time.First of all, Merry Christmas Eve! It's hard to believe that one week of winter break has already passed and, more importantly, that 2012 is almost over. This past year has seemed like such a blur: I'm confusing this London summer with last Shanghai summer, this quarter's … Continue reading Hodgepodge →

I knew you were trouble when you walked inSo shame on me nowFlew me to places I've never beenTil you put me down, ohI knew you were trouble when you walked inSo shame on me nowFlew me to places I've never beenNow I'm lying on the cold hard ground, ohAnd the saddest fear comes creeping … Continue reading Trouble →

Another fall quarter concludes as another winter break approaches. Although I still haven't decided whether to graduate this or next year, I am mentally preparing myself for the former. A few days ago, it occurred to me that this could be my last fall quarter at UCLA, one of my last research papers, one of … Continue reading Gradua–what? →

I figured it out. When it comes to relationships with people--whether friendly or romantic--I wear my heart on my sleeve. Too quickly, I de-compartmentalize my life and reveal detail after detail. I expose everything about myself, hoping that maybe some day, the other will start to do the same, hoping that my exposure will encourage the … Continue reading Heart on My Sleeve →

I wish I knew what I wanted anymore. I wish I knew what other people wanted so that I could decide how to act. But that means that my actions are contingent on others' desires--and they really are. It doesn't mean I can't be independent. I think it means more that I care more for … Continue reading What do you want? →

Some people act like they're the only ones with things to deal with. Well, those people need to build a bridge and get over it. Or at least over themselves, because everybody around them has things to deal with, too. But not everybody is complaining. So suck it up and deal with it. Silently and … Continue reading Bridges →

And here I go again: another month passed without blogging. Guiltily, I admit that I haven't thought much about blogging in the past several weeks. But as usual, it isn't even because I have been that busy. As usual, I have just been lazy. But unlike usual, I will not go through the self-admonishment episode … Continue reading Here We Go Again →

In the process of pursuing something or someone, how do you know when to stop? Per usual, what the heart feels and what the mind reasons most likely conflict. Per usual, what you guess you want to do and what your peers advise you to do most likely contrast. You seek one answer, but you … Continue reading Pursuit →